Since I started this semester of college, I've been working on a few things. I'm not sure I would call them personal goals, because I feel like they are more in the realm of personal growth. Last year I did a lot of letting go and learning how to live in the moment. I had spent a good few years prior thinking that you had to clutch tightly to every moment and soak in each day for all it was worth. Which was true to an extent. But that mindset began to become more of a poison than an antidote. It caused me to overthink everything, and in a way special moments became filled with anxiety and sadness over the realization that they would soon end. Last year I started loosening my unhealthy mental grip on moments, and really, truly lived. I didn't think about how soon those good times would end, how soon Summer would send me away from my close friends. I didn't feel the need to photograph and video every. single. little. thing. Instead I chose to just be. And I had never felt so free.
With this semester have come some new personal challenges. I've come to a realization. It's easy to take joy and live in the moment when things are going your way. It's simple, but profound. So what about when life happens, and you find a few mountains to climb in the middle of your path? Hmm - living in the moment suddenly gets a little more tricky, didn't it? Ouch. Slowly but surely, I've been learning to enjoy all of the moments - the days when I have free time to spend with my honey, the days when I have hours of math to pull through, the small hour break I get on Mondays to grab a latte, the 30 minutes I get to spend with Jesus each night before I go to bed. Everyday is a gift. Even through the stressful and overwhelming times, there are still beautiful, treasurable things to hold onto. I can look at a boatload of homework and see it as a hindrance to my joy, or as an opportunity to stretch and exercise my mind. I can look at difficult social situations and take them as learning experiences. There is something good to find in every situation.
Dress & kimono: c/o Romwe
Necklace: Forever 21
Photo Credit: Elizabeth Lauren Photography